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Love is such a strange word. It’s really weird that such a small word describes such a fundamental feeling. I’ve been living for quite a while now but never in my life have I heard one accurate description of this feeling. Of course some people may have found their definition for this word, maybe the definition of love lays in a person, in a feeling and that is the reason why some of us don’t seem to find it in phrases.

I’ve always wondered why is love such a popular feeling. So many books, so many songs, drawings, it’s so widespread. I wonder if love is really the most fundamental thing in life, the ultimate definition of perfection, the collective goal of humanity, or we just make it like this.

I wonder if we make love important or love makes us important.

But love comes in different forms and we all express love differently. I won’t repeat the “there are billions kinds of love” theory because I think we all heard about it. We can love a friend, a mother, a lover, it’s not important who we love but how.

I am getting gradually but surely sick of love. We all wake up looking, searching for love, to give it, to receive it, and sometimes you are satisfied with it but sometimes you are not. Sometimes you wish you could love other people and sometimes you wish you’ll never love anybody else as much as you love someone in particular. Why do we keep searching for it? We keep searching for a person or a feeling that can influence who we are and who we worked hard to become. We keep looking for somebody who can either destroy us or elevate us. But why can’t we accept the state of life that we create for us. Why are we looking for someone who can bring chaos in our life? Is stability boring? Or maybe -just maybe- we can’t help it?

Maybe our hearts just create invisible connections and when we are apart from those whom we love the strings that keep our hearts together are getting weaker and cause us pain. Maybe when we fight they get tangled. Maybe there is an entire story happening in an unseen world involving our hearts and we can just feel and act on it.

Maybe -just maybe- love is controlling us and we never stood a chance.

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I’ve been meaning to start this blog for a while. Of course I made my first post a while ago, but it doesn’t really feel like I started. I keep on waiting. I’m waiting for the perfect moment. I feel like I am waiting to live , to breath, just waiting on something that will give my life meaning. I can not tell exactly why is that. I guess I feel unworthy. I just don’t allow myself to believe that I can live such an imperfect life and still be happy. And the truth is that it’s been a while, it’s been a while since I last felt truly happy and genuinely blessed for being who I am. I fool myself into thinking I do my best to change but the truth is I am not. I am terrified that even if I try I won’t succeed. There are some days when I feel really motivated, but it just fades down. This time … I will really try. I will change my life. I will make it to the top. Because I am worthy, we all are. We just need a pinch of craziness and motivation. I’ve decided to start writing because that is what I want to do. This gives me the sense of purpose I need. And my words may not mean the world to most of you, but they are my world.

How to do your eyebrows like pro (#day 6 of blogging challenge)

Hi guys! I’m incredibly excited to share with you my method of doing eyebrows. I’ve been using it for almost a year now and it’s working magic.

Here is a picture before and after, please notice the difference.

What you will need is an angled brush( I use one from Anastasia) like this :

But really any brush will work but make sure it’s pretty stiff because fluffy brushes don’t pick up that much product and offer less precision so it will be a longer process.

One of the greatest tips I’ve ever come up to is to use oil ( any type, I use coco oil) to soften what it is that you put on your brows( powder, pomade etc).

I didn’t used to do this because my pomade was pretty soft but for an unknown reason it hardened. If that’s the case for yours too use a little bit of oil to make it glide smoothly.

The first thing i do is brush my eyebrows upwards so I can see the shape underneath:

After I draw a small line putting more pressure at the end.

After I draw the line I brush it to move the color upwards.

Then I brush the hairs down

And make the same line in the upper side of the brow. Afterwards I brush it again and put the hairs in their normal position

Than because I miss a few hairs under my arch I make hair-like strokes with the brush .

Afterwards I use some concealer to clean the brow up.

And this is the final picture

I really hope you found this tips useful. I also hope you enjoyed this quick tutorial and please like it and comment with your thoughts or tricks .

Kisses.

My trip to Rome( #day 5 of blogging challenge)

Hi guys. In November 2017 I’ve been to Rome but I didn’t document my trip as I didn’t have this blog at the moment so I guess I will talk about it now.

Rome is an incredibly beautiful city. In all honesty all Italian city look alike( at least from my point of view) but Rome has an amazing history that gives it a certain romantic air. Also it really amazed me that a city with so much remaining old buildings and history can also contain modern architecture but still look like a whole not two separate settings.

Although I’m more into more writing rather than photos, today I’ll let them talk for me.

What it’s really like having acne (Day 4 of blogging challenge)

What it’s really like to have acne

Although having acne is not the best experience, it’s still an experience so I want to capture this experience into words and expose it in the museum that is my blog.

Having acne it’s like having a handicap and it is not an exaggeration. This has nothing to do with superficiality but more with self-worth.

What other people say about us really takes a toll on how we see ourselves even if we don’t want it to. No matter what you do and how nice you are, if you have acne there is bound to be a person who wants to bring you down and pick on your skin issues to do so.

Having acne is like having a huge sign on your face and what really bothers you is not that people will label you in a certain way because of it but what really hurts is feeling the pressure of that label on your personality.

Having acne is being afraid, being ashamed, feeling humiliated because of yourself but knowing that you’re not truly guilty.

Having acne is missing a sleepover because you don’t want other people to look at you without no make-up on.

Having acne is being laughed at every time you pass on eating something dairy because for other people it doesn’t make sense but you are too afraid of a breakout.

Having acne is not being able to go to school or any other social event without covering or you blemishes even though you wanted to go bare faced.

Having acne is spending $500+ on different skin care products that had little to no results but still buying another one because you can’t lose your hope.

Having acne is hating to look at yourself in photos, videos even mirror when there is someone else with good skin beside, not because of jealousy but because your skin looks even worse in comparison.

Having acne is hearing a bunch of people who have little to no skin care routine give you skin caring advice because their skin is better.

Having acne is picking on your face, knowing you should not do that but thinking that maybe, just maybe, if you take the impurity out of your face it will just stay that way.

Having acne is hating something that is a part of who you are but you still don’t have control over it.

Having acne is not being able to be a model or an actor despite working hard for it because your skin condition affects your image.

Having acne is feeling inferior to anybody who has good skin and wishing you could be someone else.

Having acne is a hatred towards your own persona that never goes away. Having acne is an impediment in living your life. Having acne is waking up everyday and not wanting to look in the mirror. Having acne is feeling that you’re judged every second of your life.

But having acne is also waiting everyday to be the last day of your acne journey and feeling a pit of hope in your stomach. Having acne is also having a good skin day and feeling so blessed that day thinking from that day on your acne will be gone.

Having acne is the despair at the beginning of the day that will cause you hope at the end of it. One day it will go away, that’s a certainty so keep on hoping.

In a much happier, funnier light, let’s all think how great our skin will be because of all the skin care tricks we know because of acne.

Everyday make-up look (day #3 of blog challenge)

Hi everyone today I’m going to share with you all my tips and tricks for a flawless everyday make-up look.

I usually don’t wear a lot of make-up and you will see that I use a limited amount of products.

I start my routine after applying moisturizer and after that let it sink in for 5 minutes. If you’re struggling with acne or you have a big pimple a quick trick I like to use is to apply some ice on my face or just on the pimple. The inflammation will be reduced and also the pores are going to shrink (you can also use this trick if you have large pores or oily skin).

After applying the ice I prime my skin with the Pore Proficiency from Benefit(which I’m not liking that much to be honest). And what I like to do is do my eyebrows and eyes while it sinks in the skin.

I started doing my eyebrows 3 years ago and it has been a ride.I have A LOT of tips and tricks regarding eyebrows and now my method is pretty narrowed down. I use the Anastasia beverly hills pomade with the Anastasia brush( the best brush for eyebrows I’ve ever had, literally nothing compares to it).

After doing my make up I curl my lashes and put on mascara. Also what I like to do is to brush them with a clean wand from an old mascara just so they’re not clogged with mascara.

After finishing my eyebrows and lashes I put on foundation. A foundation that I’ve been digging lately is from essence and it’s incredibly cheap (7 dollars I think) and I really love it because it’s also a concealer and I suppose because of that it’s also pretty thick and incredibly white ( I do have very pale skin and I always struggle with my shade)

After foundation I finish off with powder( I’ve been loving the make-up forever one) and I do a little contouring but not Instagram type of contouring. If you want to add a little bit more extra to this make-up you can use the shade you use for contour as an eyeshadow( it always looks great).

iI finish off the whole look with lip balm or nude lipstick depending on my mood.

HELPFUL TIP FOR A GREAT EVERYDAY MAKEUP THAT WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE:

What I’m about to say to you is the number one trick that I use and it’s incredibly simple. A lot of people don’t like the way they look with natural make-up. I am too a part of that crowd and I never could go out without any make-up or a very light one.

What you can do to minimize the no make-up look is to find that part of your face that you think you ought to have make up. Once you realize which part is (it could be your lips, eyes, eyebrows) we will call it the problem area. At least for me it’s the eyebrows and what I can not do is go out with natural looking eyebrows. Maybe you’ll find out that you’re problem area is your face, if you have acne or something that disturbs you. After recognizing it we must “treat it” and by that I mean your entire routine can remain unchanged but that one part must be carefully taken care of. I always fill in my eyebrows completely even though I do the rest of my face natural. If you find out your problem area is your eyes you can apply eyeshadow and keep on doing your natural make-up.

This tip has changed my make-up game and has made it so easier for me and I hope it will help you too.

15 Facts About myself (Day #2 of Blog Challenge)

Hi everyone!

This is my second day doing the 30 days Blog Challenge.

Today I’m going to reveal 15 facts about myself so let’s get right into it.

1. I call my mother by her first name which is also my middle name.

2. I love almond milk but I hate Coco Milk.

3. My right leg is a little bit longer than the left one( but it’s not noticeable I found out at the doctor).

4. I hate tea with all my heart.

5. In eight grade some girl told me I had no eyebrows and ever since I entered high school I’ve always filled them in (I haven’t gone one day to school without my eyebrows being done).

6. In 5th grade I had all As except from English and now English is the only subject I ace.

7. I never finish a perfume, when I see the bottle half full I stop using it.

8. I’ve recently been to Rome.

9. I have a 2 months old kitten.

10. My good side (for photos) is left.

11. I always wear snickers, I hate wearing any other type of shoes( unless there is an event).

12. My favorite book is Jane Eyre.

13. I speak three languages.

14. I’ve never cut my hair until 4th grade.

15. When I was a child I was obsessed with Naruto.

Day 1- blogging challenge

Hi you(the person who is currently reading my first blog post) thank you so much for taking the time and reading this.

My name is Denise and i am a teenage girl in high school. nothing extraordinary happened to me so don’t expect wild stories about partying every day but nevertheless don’t expect boring content because that is not the case either. I will be mostly blogging about my life, fashion and make up. a change of topic may occur once in a while but i’m sure it is going to be as entertaining for you as it will be for me.

My first post entitled “15 funny facts about myself” is going to come out soon aNd I hope you’ll love it

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Story: My first love

I strongly believe that your first love really defines you. The people you love in general define you, and your first love is like a window through your past self.

My first love was a classmate in fourth grade. Let’s call him Justin. He transferred to my school in fourth grade. I don’t recall being love at first sight but I cannot remember a moment in the following 3 years that I didn’t think of him. At that time being cool literally meant being the smartest in the class and he really was very smart, of course there were exceptions to this rule. I was equally as smart but for an unknown reason I was never able to be cool. I really wanted him to notice me but when he did he was teasing me, not in the funny way, in the close-to-bullying kind of way. It went on and on for 3 years. In those years I have never EVER thought about another guy. I was literally obsessed with Justin. It so happened that in that period of time I was very close with this girl, let’s call her Mandy. Mandy was way more popular than me and much more athletic(at that time being athletic was incredibly important for me for an unknown reason). Being friends with her made me feel really inferior and there was a rumor going around that Justin liked her. I was not mad at her just mad at me, a habit I still have now, so many years after, to put myself down because I am not seen as important by the people who are important to me. I don’t remember why exactly but because of Mandy I accidentally sent Justin a text. In that day we texted a lot and I don’t really remember what the texts were about. I was so mesmerized that I was texting him I didn’t even cared what was happening around me that day. I still remember how my heart rushed after pressing send. Fast-forward through that day, still by text he asked me to be his girlfriend. That literally felt like all my dreams come true. I replied in like an instant saying how I would love to be his girlfriend but I don’t want Mandy to be upset(because I had a strong feeling she liked him) and I told him we should keep this a secret. Such a naive young girl I was. This is basically were my nightmare begin. The next day literally all the boys were laughing at me and I started crying in class.It turned out it was all a joke for him. Three years worth of feelings were a joke. Up to now I still believe that was the saddest day in my life, I consider it more of a trauma actually. The thing is that I was a really hard working and caring girl, and I wouldn’t have called me ugly either, and I nurtured pure feelings for another human being just so I would have my heart ripped out in front of everyone I knew. That experience really changed me. I forced myself (while I was crying and trying to fall asleep) not to think of him because it was literally a reflex for me. And I eventually did stop thinking of him, after I changed schools. I still lie about the reason why I changed schools because I don’t want anybody to judge me and say I overreacted, but it really was painful and hard to realize that being the best you can will never be enough for some people.

Looking back I am not sure if love is what I felt for that boy but it was incredibly hard to get over it, but now I am actually really good at getting over almost everything so I like to think that I was thought a hard lesson at that time so I can use it now. Just in case you are wondering if Justin and I ever crossed paths again, I did hang out with Justin in my freshman year because of common friends and I realized that if he was out of my league then, I am out of his now. Therefore if you are going through a hard time in your love life and you feel like a certain guy is your one and only, chances are in a few years he won’t mean nothing but a lesson to you.

How to be confident

Hi and welcome to my blog, it’s been a while since our last talk.

Today I’d like to talk about something incredibly important for people from all over the world, and that is confidence. Whenever I saw a certain type of people(confident people) I have come to the conclusion that they have something more. I can’t properly define that “more” but if I were to put it into words it would be a certain easiness in moving, talking and behaving in general. But what is it that gives them that easiness ? And more important, how can we get it?

It may come as a shock but being confident is actually really simple, you just need to follow some basic rules.

RULE NUMBER 1: Take care of yourself

I am not saying to “Start going to the gym” or “Start a diet” but try making healthy choices in your every day life, either eat a salad at lunch rather than a pizza, or walk to school/work instead of driving/taking the bus or start drinking more water. Do small things that will lead to a healthier state of your body and mind.

RULE NUMBER 2: Don’t put yourself down

There will always be certain moments in every person’s life when we are not happy with ourselves but thinking too much about those moments will only result in more suffering and less improvement. If you made a mistake, you are not the first and certainly not the least, learn something from it and move on.

RULE NUMBER 3: Reward yourself

Now, don’t get this wrong, I am not saying go make unhealthy choices because you deserve to, a lot of people seem to get this wrong. Reward yourself with something that will boost your confidence on the long-term. Buy a new exfoliant or make time to try a DIY face-mask, or if you have a lot of time on your hands start attending a course you really want to. Just find something that will bring joy and improvement to your life.

RULE NUMBER 4: Dress up

Put on a bit of make up or a lot, but own it and know that you are always beautiful with or without it. Choose your clothes wisely, according to your figure, your likes and personality. Find clothes in which you feel comfortable but also flawless. Wearing revealing clothes won’t always make you feel more confident although a lot of people think so. If it works for you than rock the look but if it doesn’t don’t force it.

RULE NUMBER 5(the most important): Don’t let other people treat you badly

Never let a person( no matter how much you love him/her) tell you what’s your worth. A lot of people don’t understand that if you  think highly of someone and that someone says something about you it does not mean that what they say it’s true. Putting yourself first doesn’t come naturally to everyone but you have to realize that the only opinion of yourself that really matters is your own, any other opinion is as important as you make it to be.

RULE NUMBER 6: “Fake it till’ you make it”

This is literally the quote I live by. We all have this little superpower and that is that people can only assume what we are thinking of. If you act like you are the best version of yourself, if you act like you are the most beautiful person, if you act like you deserve to be respected, maybe not today, not tomorrow but one day the role you are playing will stop being a role and it will start becoming a reality.

Try following this rules and remember that consistency is the key. Don’t be to harsh on yourself, you are still growing and learning and sometimes that implies a little bit of suffering. Your rode to confidence started when you(unintentionally) started following the rule nr.3 and rewarded yourself by researching informations about confidence, now follow them.

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