Love is such a strange word. It’s really weird that such a small word describes such a fundamental feeling. I’ve been living for quite a while now but never in my life have I heard one accurate description of this feeling. Of course some people may have found their definition for this word, maybe the definition of love lays in a person, in a feeling and that is the reason why some of us don’t seem to find it in phrases.

I’ve always wondered why is love such a popular feeling. So many books, so many songs, drawings, it’s so widespread. I wonder if love is really the most fundamental thing in life, the ultimate definition of perfection, the collective goal of humanity, or we just make it like this.

I wonder if we make love important or love makes us important.

But love comes in different forms and we all express love differently. I won’t repeat the “there are billions kinds of love” theory because I think we all heard about it. We can love a friend, a mother, a lover, it’s not important who we love but how.

I am getting gradually but surely sick of love. We all wake up looking, searching for love, to give it, to receive it, and sometimes you are satisfied with it but sometimes you are not. Sometimes you wish you could love other people and sometimes you wish you’ll never love anybody else as much as you love someone in particular. Why do we keep searching for it? We keep searching for a person or a feeling that can influence who we are and who we worked hard to become. We keep looking for somebody who can either destroy us or elevate us. But why can’t we accept the state of life that we create for us. Why are we looking for someone who can bring chaos in our life? Is stability boring? Or maybe -just maybe- we can’t help it?

Maybe our hearts just create invisible connections and when we are apart from those whom we love the strings that keep our hearts together are getting weaker and cause us pain. Maybe when we fight they get tangled. Maybe there is an entire story happening in an unseen world involving our hearts and we can just feel and act on it.

Maybe -just maybe- love is controlling us and we never stood a chance.



I’ve been meaning to start this blog for a while. Of course I made my first post a while ago, but it doesn’t really feel like I started. I keep on waiting. I’m waiting for the perfect moment. I feel like I am waiting to live , to breath, just waiting on something that will give my life meaning. I can not tell exactly why is that. I guess I feel unworthy. I just don’t allow myself to believe that I can live such an imperfect life and still be happy. And the truth is that it’s been a while, it’s been a while since I last felt truly happy and genuinely blessed for being who I am. I fool myself into thinking I do my best to change but the truth is I am not. I am terrified that even if I try I won’t succeed. There are some days when I feel really motivated, but it just fades down. This time … I will really try. I will change my life. I will make it to the top. Because I am worthy, we all are. We just need a pinch of craziness and motivation. I’ve decided to start writing because that is what I want to do. This gives me the sense of purpose I need. And my words may not mean the world to most of you, but they are my world.


Hey guys! Wow second update of the day, I got madd blogging game. Just kidding just wanted to show you a picture of my cat eating a flower.

after she got caught

Dear online diary #day 4

Haven’t written in two days but I got some great new. I managed to apply for a program and it was pretty hard so that is the reason I have been a little distracted. It took me 4 hours straight to apply but I have my doubts regarding my actual entering. But in all honesty I’m proud because I put so much hard work into it.

Also I went dress shopping with my sister and she got a gorgeous dress and I’m really proud of her because she normally hates shopping.

Another great news is that my skin is clearing up which is great. I hav been going out every day (another great news). I bought a book that I’m very excited to read but it will take a while.

Now I really need to do my homework but I’m probably going to watch a series before cuz I am really lazy.

Without further ado here are some pictures from my days

Dear online diary #day2

You will not believe what happened today. I’m not one to believe in coincidence and to be honest I haven’t given “faith” to much though but the strangest think happened today. I really needed to get a particular document from the principal for entering a program but I had so much anxiety about it I thought I would never get around to actually do it but it turns out two of my friends needed the exact same thing. I know what you might think, “it’s not that big of a coincidence” but that document is incredibly rarely asked for and to find out that my friends needed it exactly the day after I found out I needed it it’s kind of crazy and to think that it’s a coincidence it’s even crazier. I was a bit pessimistic regarding this program to be completely honest because there were lots and lots of requirements and documents but now I have so much faith because of this “coincidence”. I really hope all things will turn out for the best.

Moving on with my day.

Today was slightly better than yesterday I suppose. Some things start falling into place, I’m making plans for the summer that I’m actually excited for. Something that kind of set me off today is that my teacher didn’t congratulate me on getting the best mark in the entire school at an exam but that particular teacher isn’t so generous with compliments so I guess I don’t really mind but it would have been nice if she said something kind. Also she gave us a lot of homework that I’m not particularly excited about.

All in all my day went slightly better than yesterday. I’m planning on going to the gym tomorrow after school, also start revising for exams and writing letters of motivation for some projects.

I hope you all had a wonderful day also, please comment something good that happened to you today.

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Dear online diary

I’ve always wanted to start keeping a journal but I’m very bad at committing so I never got around to do it because I knew I wasn’t going to keep writing. I don’t know what exactlychanged or even if something did actually changed but I decided to commit to an online diary. So here we go.

Today was a bit awful. So were the days before. We just got back from the spring break and school just about slapped me in the face. I always forget how much I hate school whenever there is a holiday and the first day after it it’s usually the worst. I want to be home schooled but because of various reasons that’s not possible for me. I do although hope and work for a change in the near future. I’m not going to lie I don’t actually try to be positive regarding my whole school hating situation, it’s too tiring, all I want to do is fast forward to it but that’s not possible so I’m trying to fast forward my emotions and don’t let school related problems get to me.

More dreadful news are that my skin is acting up which is totally disrespectful by the way, but I will do a week of detox starting tomorrow just so to be sure.

Good news is that today I’ve gone to school with little to no makeup on and I didn’t actually feel insecure and I didn’t internally obsess about my ugliness . So that is great isn’t it?

I suppose I’m done for today so goodbye đź’‹

Also pic of me looking like a tired chipmunk

How to do your eyebrows like pro (#day 6 of blogging challenge)

Hi guys! I’m incredibly excited to share with you my method of doing eyebrows. I’ve been using it for almost a year now and it’s working magic.

Here is a picture before and after, please notice the difference.

What you will need is an angled brush( I use one from Anastasia) like this :

But really any brush will work but make sure it’s pretty stiff because fluffy brushes don’t pick up that much product and offer less precision so it will be a longer process.

One of the greatest tips I’ve ever come up to is to use oil ( any type, I use coco oil) to soften what it is that you put on your brows( powder, pomade etc).

I didn’t used to do this because my pomade was pretty soft but for an unknown reason it hardened. If that’s the case for yours too use a little bit of oil to make it glide smoothly.

The first thing i do is brush my eyebrows upwards so I can see the shape underneath:

After I draw a small line putting more pressure at the end.

After I draw the line I brush it to move the color upwards.

Then I brush the hairs down

And make the same line in the upper side of the brow. Afterwards I brush it again and put the hairs in their normal position

Than because I miss a few hairs under my arch I make hair-like strokes with the brush .

Afterwards I use some concealer to clean the brow up.

And this is the final picture

I really hope you found this tips useful. I also hope you enjoyed this quick tutorial and please like it and comment with your thoughts or tricks .


My trip to Rome( #day 5 of blogging challenge)

Hi guys. In November 2017 I’ve been to Rome but I didn’t document my trip as I didn’t have this blog at the moment so I guess I will talk about it now.

Rome is an incredibly beautiful city. In all honesty all Italian city look alike( at least from my point of view) but Rome has an amazing history that gives it a certain romantic air. Also it really amazed me that a city with so much remaining old buildings and history can also contain modern architecture but still look like a whole not two separate settings.

Although I’m more into more writing rather than photos, today I’ll let them talk for me.

What it’s really like having acne (Day 4 of blogging challenge)

What it’s really like to have acne

Although having acne is not the best experience, it’s still an experience so I want to capture this experience into words and expose it in the museum that is my blog.

Having acne it’s like having a handicap and it is not an exaggeration. This has nothing to do with superficiality but more with self-worth.

What other people say about us really takes a toll on how we see ourselves even if we don’t want it to. No matter what you do and how nice you are, if you have acne there is bound to be a person who wants to bring you down and pick on your skin issues to do so.

Having acne is like having a huge sign on your face and what really bothers you is not that people will label you in a certain way because of it but what really hurts is feeling the pressure of that label on your personality.

Having acne is being afraid, being ashamed, feeling humiliated because of yourself but knowing that you’re not truly guilty.

Having acne is missing a sleepover because you don’t want other people to look at you without no make-up on.

Having acne is being laughed at every time you pass on eating something dairy because for other people it doesn’t make sense but you are too afraid of a breakout.

Having acne is not being able to go to school or any other social event without covering or you blemishes even though you wanted to go bare faced.

Having acne is spending $500+ on different skin care products that had little to no results but still buying another one because you can’t lose your hope.

Having acne is hating to look at yourself in photos, videos even mirror when there is someone else with good skin beside, not because of jealousy but because your skin looks even worse in comparison.

Having acne is hearing a bunch of people who have little to no skin care routine give you skin caring advice because their skin is better.

Having acne is picking on your face, knowing you should not do that but thinking that maybe, just maybe, if you take the impurity out of your face it will just stay that way.

Having acne is hating something that is a part of who you are but you still don’t have control over it.

Having acne is not being able to be a model or an actor despite working hard for it because your skin condition affects your image.

Having acne is feeling inferior to anybody who has good skin and wishing you could be someone else.

Having acne is a hatred towards your own persona that never goes away. Having acne is an impediment in living your life. Having acne is waking up everyday and not wanting to look in the mirror. Having acne is feeling that you’re judged every second of your life.

But having acne is also waiting everyday to be the last day of your acne journey and feeling a pit of hope in your stomach. Having acne is also having a good skin day and feeling so blessed that day thinking from that day on your acne will be gone.

Having acne is the despair at the beginning of the day that will cause you hope at the end of it. One day it will go away, that’s a certainty so keep on hoping.

In a much happier, funnier light, let’s all think how great our skin will be because of all the skin care tricks we know because of acne.

Everyday make-up look (day #3 of blog challenge)

Hi everyone today I’m going to share with you all my tips and tricks for a flawless everyday make-up look.

I usually don’t wear a lot of make-up and you will see that I use a limited amount of products.

I start my routine after applying moisturizer and after that let it sink in for 5 minutes. If you’re struggling with acne or you have a big pimple a quick trick I like to use is to apply some ice on my face or just on the pimple. The inflammation will be reduced and also the pores are going to shrink (you can also use this trick if you have large pores or oily skin).

After applying the ice I prime my skin with the Pore Proficiency from Benefit(which I’m not liking that much to be honest). And what I like to do is do my eyebrows and eyes while it sinks in the skin.

I started doing my eyebrows 3 years ago and it has been a ride.I have A LOT of tips and tricks regarding eyebrows and now my method is pretty narrowed down. I use the Anastasia beverly hills pomade with the Anastasia brush( the best brush for eyebrows I’ve ever had, literally nothing compares to it).

After doing my make up I curl my lashes and put on mascara. Also what I like to do is to brush them with a clean wand from an old mascara just so they’re not clogged with mascara.

After finishing my eyebrows and lashes I put on foundation. A foundation that I’ve been digging lately is from essence and it’s incredibly cheap (7 dollars I think) and I really love it because it’s also a concealer and I suppose because of that it’s also pretty thick and incredibly white ( I do have very pale skin and I always struggle with my shade)

After foundation I finish off with powder( I’ve been loving the make-up forever one) and I do a little contouring but not Instagram type of contouring. If you want to add a little bit more extra to this make-up you can use the shade you use for contour as an eyeshadow( it always looks great).

iI finish off the whole look with lip balm or nude lipstick depending on my mood.


What I’m about to say to you is the number one trick that I use and it’s incredibly simple. A lot of people don’t like the way they look with natural make-up. I am too a part of that crowd and I never could go out without any make-up or a very light one.

What you can do to minimize the no make-up look is to find that part of your face that you think you ought to have make up. Once you realize which part is (it could be your lips, eyes, eyebrows) we will call it the problem area. At least for me it’s the eyebrows and what I can not do is go out with natural looking eyebrows. Maybe you’ll find out that you’re problem area is your face, if you have acne or something that disturbs you. After recognizing it we must “treat it” and by that I mean your entire routine can remain unchanged but that one part must be carefully taken care of. I always fill in my eyebrows completely even though I do the rest of my face natural. If you find out your problem area is your eyes you can apply eyeshadow and keep on doing your natural make-up.

This tip has changed my make-up game and has made it so easier for me and I hope it will help you too.

15 Facts About myself (Day #2 of Blog Challenge)

Hi everyone!

This is my second day doing the 30 days Blog Challenge.

Today I’m going to reveal 15 facts about myself so let’s get right into it.

1. I call my mother by her first name which is also my middle name.

2. I love almond milk but I hate Coco Milk.

3. My right leg is a little bit longer than the left one( but it’s not noticeable I found out at the doctor).

4. I hate tea with all my heart.

5. In eight grade some girl told me I had no eyebrows and ever since I entered high school I’ve always filled them in (I haven’t gone one day to school without my eyebrows being done).

6. In 5th grade I had all As except from English and now English is the only subject I ace.

7. I never finish a perfume, when I see the bottle half full I stop using it.

8. I’ve recently been to Rome.

9. I have a 2 months old kitten.

10. My good side (for photos) is left.

11. I always wear snickers, I hate wearing any other type of shoes( unless there is an event).

12. My favorite book is Jane Eyre.

13. I speak three languages.

14. I’ve never cut my hair until 4th grade.

15. When I was a child I was obsessed with Naruto.

Day 1- blogging challenge

Hi you(the person who is currently reading my first blog post) thank you so much for taking the time and reading this.

My name is Denise and i am a teenage girl in high school. nothing extraordinary happened to me so don’t expect wild stories about partying every day but nevertheless don’t expect boring content because that is not the case either. I will be mostly blogging about my life, fashion and make up. a change of topic may occur once in a while but i’m sure it is going to be as entertaining for you as it will be for me.

My first post entitled “15 funny facts about myself” is going to come out soon aNd I hope you’ll love it

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